God speaks

Often times I will hear people say that God does not answer them when they need Him to. That is not how our loving Father works. I find that He can be quieter than I would like at times, but that is usually because I am being too loud at the time and can’t hear Him over my own thoughts. if you stay still and silent before Him, He will speak.

Over the last few weeks I have been praying about and planning a change. I have been uncertain if it was a good move logically, but my heart has been guided towards this for some time. After a series of events that seemed to really point in the direction I have been contemplating, I decided to make some small steps. As I sat in my office, wondering if I should really make this next move, several birds few so close to the window that I thought they were going to fly into it. As I allowed my attention to drift towards the large number of birds on the ground and in the trees, a Bible verse came to mind and I knew that God was telling me to be at ease.

Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? – Matthew 6:26 NLT

Has my Lord not shown me over and over again that He will provide for me and for my family? Has He not worked miracles in a budget that should not have worked in theory? Has He not guided my path to places of healing and growth? Every single time I have stopped putting faith in my own abilities and have handed it over to God, He has come through. Why would this be any different?

God is faithful. Jesus loves me more than I could even begin to understand. I can rest in the fact that no matter how I may doubt my abilities and my own worth, God will provide a way for me and had great plans for this life. So long as He is at the center, nothing can touch me. I can’t go wrong when He is leading the way. Holy Spirit, fill me up and cleans me from the worries of this world!

Today I was reminded to push past the self-doubts that can be suffocating at times. He whispered to me in a moment of stillness. I know that I am moving in the right direction. I have learned to move slowly, purposely and to not allow myself to move ahead of His plans.

Once, not all that long ago, I would have heard a piece of His plan and I would have ran as fast as I could have with it. Lately, I have been able to step back, wait on Him to guide my steps, step out in faith and see where He leads me. It has been a beautiful process and I never want to forget this. Wait on the Lord and be sure to respond when the Spirit tells me to. I need to stop listening to the lies that try to keep me from moving in any direction. It can be paralyzing. I must step boldly in the direction my God has shown me.

Learning to speak less, listen more and to be still more often has been challenging. With such small progress, I feel such powerful responses from the Holy Spirit. I wonder how much more He could accomplish in this life if I could just learn to give Him more room to work!

Today I pray that we all take time to stop and listen. Be still before Jesus and ask Him to free you from the lies that keep you from stepping out in faith. Ask Him to show you what plans He has for you. Let Him guide your steps. Let Him be a beacon in the wilderness. Do not allow us to lean on our own understanding!

In the precious name of Jesus I pray these things. Amen.


Proverbs Study Day 15

Day 15! I have not posted in a few days as I have been spending time with Jesus and family. I will write about those experiences after this study.

Proverbs 15

A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare. The tongue of the wise makes knowledge appealing, but the mouth of a fool belches out foolishness. The lord is watching everywhere, keeping his eye on both the evil and the good. Gentle words are a tree of life; a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit. Only a fool despises a parent’s discipline; whoever learns from correction is wise. There is treasure in the house of the godly, but the earnings of the wicked bring trouble. The lips of the wise give good advice; the heart of a fool has none to give. The lord detests the sacrifice of the wicked, but he delights in the prayers of the upright. The lord detests the way of the wicked, but he loves those who pursue godliness. Whoever abandons the right path will be severely disciplined; whoever hates correction will die. Even Death and Destruction hold no secrets from the lord. How much more does he know the human heart! Mockers hate to be corrected, so they stay away from the wise. A glad heart makes a happy face; a broken heart crushes the spirit. A wise person is hungry for knowledge, while the fool feeds on trash. For the despondent, every day brings trouble; for the happy heart, life is a continual feast. Better to have little, with fear for the lord , than to have great treasure and inner turmoil. A bowl of vegetables with someone you love is better than steak with someone you hate. A hot-tempered person starts fights; a cool-tempered person stops them. A lazy person’s way is blocked with briers, but the path of the upright is an open highway. Sensible children bring joy to their father; foolish children despise their mother. Foolishness brings joy to those with no sense; a sensible person stays on the right path. Plans go wrong for lack of advice; many advisers bring success. Everyone enjoys a fitting reply; it is wonderful to say the right thing at the right time! The path of life leads upward for the wise; they leave the grave behind. The lord tears down the house of the proud, but he protects the property of widows. The lord detests evil plans, but he delights in pure words. Greed brings grief to the whole family, but those who hate bribes will live. The heart of the godly thinks carefully before speaking; the mouth of the wicked overflows with evil words. The lord is far from the wicked, but he hears the prayers of the righteous. A cheerful look brings joy to the heart; good news makes for good health. If you listen to constructive criticism, you will be at home among the wise. If you reject discipline, you only harm yourself; but if you listen to correction, you grow in understanding. Fear of the lord teaches wisdom; humility precedes honor.


What I learned from this chapter:

First off, I as blown away by one verse here. “Even Death and Destruction hold no secrets from the lord. How much more does he know the human heart!.”

As I mentioned above,  I have been working on some things with Jesus and He is showing me so many things. This verse spoke to my heart Friday while studying. I cannot hide anything from God, He knows all. He knows my heart better than I ever could. When I think I’m hiding pieces on myself or my past, I am only fooling myself. God watches us all. He know our stories and He longs to heal us. Only I can get in the way of that.

I long to hear His wisdom and to walk in His ways. The journey is often difficult,  but I have become a better me through Christ and trust that He leads me towards His heart always.

My prayer for today:

Lord, I know You hear my prayers and You know my heart. I thank You for Your wisdom and long to be in Your will. I pray that You continue to remind me that You are all knowing and that You love me always. Thank You for the gift of life You’ve bestowed upon us all. In the precious name of Jesus I pray these things. Amen.



Digging deeper

I have chosen to follow Jesus into a place of great discomfort in order to find healing. I am willing to follow Him, despite the uncomfortably that will come, knowing that He always intends to bring life and light into my life. I have been walking with Jesus long enough to know that I can trust Him completely.

He has brought me to a deep, dark and hardened place within. A cold place I have been trying to keep buried for a very long time. I know he desires to break through this place and that I will be thankful when I’ve come out in the other side. It still scares me.

This journey I am about to embark upon will be difficult and I will need support. I have been blessed with a sister in Christ who is ready and willing to walk by my side through it.

God has done such amazing things in this life I lead and has done such works in me. I faithfully expect that this too will be amazing and that He will use it for His Glory.

I am at the threshold of this long journey and can already see just how big this unresolved pain has been affecting my daily life. I have a glimmer of how this has been causing such struggles for me. I cannot imagine how much more I will discover or how liberating it will be to finally get on the other side.

Never before have I dealt properly with these deep, dark secrets. Anger, uncertainty and pain has been the consequences of holding onto these things. The time has come for Jesus’ Holy light to shine into these parts of me so that I may find freedom.

I choose to follow Jesus,  even when I know it will cause old wounds to reopen and a great discomfort for a period of time. I trust in Him in all things. I pray daily for transformation and healing, now it’s time for me to walk through this place to find it.

I will keep my focus on eternity and obediently follow my Lord into greener pastures. I know He forgives me and it’s time for me to forgive myself.